Somehow the environment around me has taught me one thing: Learn how to get go.
And move on.
Somehow I'm doing that, and it's not easy for me to do it.
And same goes to my previous job.
It gave me negative hopes again and again.
I told myself I will never ever go back there again.
Because that place simply disappointed me repeatedly.

So I have found a new job.
I don't know how it will be like, but yeah.
Waiting for their calls, hope they assign me to somewhere near!

Somehow different people are telling me that I am still young or whatever.
Yes I may be young, but I feel that I am late, old and all those.
I am always a step late in everything, sigh why why why?
If only I am just nice a step (?), how nice would it be.
But sadly, I am not perfect, no one is.
I will just have to be myself.
And ps. I don't hate anyone, is just that people need to realise that not everything is right.
Not everyone is right, including me, and there are no fixed answers in life, therefore I just take it and leave it.
And also I believe good things will come to me if I wait (although I know sometimes I don't have the patience lol)
And if the chance comes to me (I REALLY HOPE), I am really gonna make sure I cherish it, grab hold and never let go.
I don't wanna be the suo tou wu gui anymore because it is not doing me any good.

Sometimes I feel that just when you had the courage to do a certain thing,
some external factor will pull down, or worse knock you down before you even started it.
That's the problem, whenever I had plan something good, and something will sure cock it up.
Everything will fail, and then I give up. Sigh.
Why like this?
I just only wanna be successful for once, is it so difficult?

It is not that I didn't try, but people are not giving me a chance to try...

As for school, my year 1 is over.
So awaiting the results and year 2.
And I have a feeling that I will repeat Maths, sigh wtf right.
I hate Maths, and till now I don't see the need to use log or algebra in my career or anywhere in my life.
Hating Maths is ok, but the faci is seriously !@#$!, making me flunk like 2 daily grades.
And both happens to be during my sick period.
Maths somehow really made me realise that even if you put in effort, you will still fail.
So why bother putting in my best effort? All I see is CCC or DDD or FFF.
I don't know is it my problem, or the faci's problem.
I feel so disappointed, really.

But whatever, what's done is done, gonna pray hard that I don't wanna repeat that single module.
I can excel in everything except Maths. Period.

BUT BUT BUT, I am not gonna give up! If the chance is given to me that is...

If God keeps saving me from heartbreaks and all the hurt, then I will never ever learn.
So please stop telling me that God is saving me from heartbreaks and all.

Will get the curse broken by this year. I don't care of it fails. I will fucking break it.

Semester 1 is officially over with the last paper done on Monday.
I don't have too much confidence on myself actually, but I do hope to proceed to Semester 2.
So once again E35K will be seperated, yeah say hi to the system in RP.
Well perhaps this system can make me be more sociable?

Getting back to the old life of mine by working everyday.
Of course I will still head out everynow and then.
Don't know whether will there be any gathering for my Poly classmates.
But there will be one for my ITE mates (organised by me ^^) and my army buddies.
Ah... Been longing to meet them, it's been sooooo long...!

August has left, and September has come.
Don't tell me to wake me up when September ends kinda thing, too mainstream and old.
And Singapore will have a new president, which is none other than Dr Tony Tan.
I hope he does a good job for the next 6 years.
And for me, I think most probably go to gym besides work... Oh well boring life I have.
Ask me out because I will always be free!

5 weeks worth of holidays, I need to spend it wisely!

Shall I wait, or is effort needed?

Okay so this is the first time I am posting something via LJ app on my new phone. Kinda cool man.

Yes so semester 1 of my poly life is about to end, and that makes me finish about 1/6 of the race.
I should say that this wacky class of mine is quite fabulous.
But the sad thing is we are about to get seperated soon.
But ok, if anyone in E35K reads this, let's meet up someday and do stay in contact ok?

Back to my boring life of mine.
Li Qiang is enjoying away in Taiwan, and so it seems like I can't have a men's talk with him for about a few days.
Oh well I guess I have to bottle it all up until he comes back to the sunny little island.
Been struggling mentally and physically, in terms of the heart and studies.
Never thought that I would fail in so many ways and so many things.
But I am used to failing because I believe failures will eventually lead you to success...
But the burning question to me is, when will success come to me?
Or should I say, when will I reach success?
I guess I have to work even harder for it...

This week is the study week, and I have not even flipped my laptop yet.
Monday's the big thing.
And I do hope that I will do well...

Like my cousin always say, one must stay positive!

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Yeah, so school's been great.
And my 1st cycle of reservist was done and over with.
And IPPT, sigh, still far!
Not hoping for the money, just doing whatever I can!

Been doing good these few days, a little bit of emoness this previous week, but hey, I am still bright!
My birthday's over, and had some cupcakes as presents.
Been long since I had birthday presents, thanks to the awesome classmates that I have.
LOL my 18th got revisited thanks to those kiddos, although I am already 23, haha!

And also UT1 and 2 has ended, well I should say I didn't do well enough.
God, don't know is my problem or what, getting quite a few failures.
And they are all no-link modules.
Need help!

And I've been running intervals these few days.
And I really hope it isn't a 三分钟热度 kinda thing...
Well this decision is also kinda affected by my classmates...
They dress nicely to school and all, while I look like an uncle all these while.
Even a 2 year old kid called me UNCLE.
Gosh... But I still do stay positive, hoping to get something out of it!

And... I still stay positive...!!!

I know this blog is dead, woohoo.

Okay so my last post was back in March 2010, which I was still a soldier.
Now time to update stuffs...

April 2010 - Platoon's Desaru getaway. Was a crazy one and I had a fun-filled memories, especially i-splash and those crazy speed racing!

June 2010 - My ORD month, got that red/semi-transparent cert, now being a NSman, which is sorts a free man, but, still that 10 years...
Within the same month was the World Cup. Didn't paid that ridiculous 90+ bucks for the subscription, so I went to CC and watch. Quite fun to watch with crowds, soccer was the only language we know. Spain was the champs.

July 2010 - Went back to my old workplace, and stayed there till school started, which was till April 2011 and I am still there on weekends.

October 2010 - 23rd October 2010 was the most memorable night ever. It was the Korean Pop Night Concert and 7 K-Pop groups came over to Singapore. Big Bang and SHINee arrived but that's not the point. The main point is SNSD came to Singapore! Yeah my wish was fulfilled. Managed to get Li Qiang, Alvin and Chong to watch it with me since they are also big SNSD fans. 9 angels coming down to SG shores and sing for you... Our hearts were fulfilled!

December 2011 - Got my very first reservist notice, first cycle due June 2011. Yes, 6 months after I ORDed. Crap, so fast, what an efficient army...

April 2011 - Hung quite long enough and finally it was back to studies. Not being a student for almost 3 years is scary enough. I was still in the military mindset, and I constantly reminded myself that I was not communicating with officers, sergeants and platoon mates, but with classmates and teachers. It's been so long since I last studied, and really, it's been years since I last touched a book, but since it's RP we touch laptops but not much difference since my line of job deals with PC and laptops everyday.

May 2011 - The 5-year-1-time General Election is here again and I was glad that I was eligible to vote, for the very 1st time. :) My dudes around me have been keeping up with politics and even my brother, who is only 20 (not eligible to vote) is also politically aware. Yeah, I was quite happy that I can do my job as a Singaporean to vote. Lol.

Quite happy with what I have now, although going 23 years old and still studying Poly is like so old but what to do, I can only blame myself for not doing well in the past. I know that I am not that academically smart person but I'll do the best I can. And what's more, my classmates are a crazy bunch of dudes, and they kinda remind me of myself in the past, crazy and playful. Haha. But while I was enjoying my time in school, a bloody SMS from MINDEF reminded me that I have to go ICT.. Yes that part damn bloody spoil the mood. Now as the date gets nearer, I am more fearful, and that fear is unknown to me...

Pros about this round of ICT:
- I can get to see those bunch of crazy platoon mates again, and catch up with them!
- 1 cycle cleared.
- It falls on my school holiday perfectly, and my studies aren't disrupted.

Cons:
- So damn bloody far away and deep in Sungei Gedong.
- Need to do IPPT which I will fail obviously.
- There are 9 more cycles to go through.
- My holidays get eaten up.
- As the saying goes, "same old shit again".

Yeah so those who complain that the holidays are short, think again. Look at my situation. :( But what to do, protecting the country is every guy's job. But it's gonna disrupt my school life sooner or later...

So I am having my nose explosion right now... I don't know when is the next post but I think I'm gonna make an effort on blogging... I'm more active in Facebook and Twitter.

another 2+ more months, i'll be a free man.
at least for about 6 months, before the NSman thing kicks in.

and did i tell you i've got a school, like finally?
i going in RP, Dip in IT.
i know it's the last poly, but anyway, at least i got into a school.
gonna work hard!!
HAHA suddenly i see my future ahead!
was not really hoping much but since i landed into a school and yeah so yay me!

i also have another blog, but more of pictures.
http://n0rm4nch3w.tumblr.com

need to get ready for my next stage of my life...

it's only less than 4 months to ORD, and the world in there is already damn crazy.
with the audit coming, and so many activities coming up, everyone's feeling crazy.
how to relax for the upcoming CNY?

just got back from buying new clothes, and trust me, I HATE shopping for clothes.
and tomorrow i have to get the fieldpack items before i book in, for the upcoming standby.
AHHH so many things, why can't just things go slow?

oh oh oh, who wanna go to the S.H.E concert on the 17th April???

haven been making post in ages.
yes, back from the torturous Aussieland, and now taking leave and off.

2009's been a rough year for me.
2009 is the army year.
and also 2 overseas trip, and many many outfields, and everything i do is related to army,.
guess army makes a person think.

i have nothing much for 2010.
just wanna get a school, study and work at the same time...
21 already and i need to support myself.
and 2010 will be the year i ORD.
yes that's the main highlight.
That will be in June.
And i will return to cvilian life.
haha, guess 2010 will be full of surprises awaiting for me for the 2nd half of the year...

yes, again for the 2nd time this year, i'll be flying to rockhampton, australia.
this time round it will be a tough one.
sigh. november will not be a singaporean month.

october was so uppy and downny.
stress and stress.. dont know until when.

and it will be near december when i'm back in singapore.
oh wells, say hi to the kangaroos!